Wednesday, 5 August 2009

Blue Skies Ahead...?

" The worse loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself "

Mark Twain

I went to a friends' sisters' party this weekend in deepest Oxfordshire countryside. It turned out to be a surprise straight wedding, there were 250 guests- all of them exceedingly straight, white, middle-classed and typical country folk with typical country attitudes.

I was wearing my "Butch, Butcher, Butchest" T-shirt! I found myself gulping down the Pimms at an attempt to numb the stares and ridiculous comments and conversations emanating from the small minded middle Englanders.

I so wanted to be elsewhere- I felt awkward and uncomfortable in my own self...not good. I wasn't in a good place when I'd arrived and was feeling fairly sad- had I known it was to be a wedding I would have avoided attendance at all costs!

Anyways, I'm back and in recovery and feeling a little less sad on a daily basis. QR, Gertie and Boo are going to Yorkshire for a few days next week and I so hope we get some blue skies.

9 comments: said...

OMG! Why'd you stay?

Who has surprise weddings?

I mean, besides me. LOL

Vicki Valentine said...

I think I'd be legging it if I ended up at a surprise wedding!
Anyway glad to see another post from you, it seems like an age! :o

Anonymous said...

Yikes, I wouldn't have been happy about a surprise wedding idea. Who does that anyway.

I would have wanted to closest exit out.

Anonymous said...

That sounds like a nightmare and I'm sorry you had to deal with it - I do love the shirt though. :)

Have fun in Yorkshire!

Margo Moon said...

In cowgirl speak, you were ambushed, my friend.

Sorry to hear that. But good on ya for anticipating those blue skies!

Unwelcome Sound said...

Ohhh man, that sounds awful!

Glad you escaped alive! x

Miss Emily said...

Whoa. Sorry to hear all of that. I've never even heard of a surprise wedding!

I love the Twain quote. I've used it often.

Leo MacCool said...

yowza. hope you've had a great time in yorkshire & are fully recovered. i know how it is, sometimes you can just laugh & say the hell with it, and other times it gets under your skin. like greg sad-i love the tshirt!

Anonymous said...

I absolutely love that Mark Twain quote! It made me uncomfortable at first, but that is because I know it to be true... on my journey to simply be "me" in a world that continually wants me to be what they think is the best version of me.
Good for you on the shirt!! :)